She Visited Her Horse Every Day Until the End

Right, grab yourself a cuppa because this one is going to stay with you, I promise you.

Queenie is a black horse and from the moment she was born on the farm, everyone who laid eyes on her knew she was not just any horse. Her breeders knew it, the farm hands knew it and frankly Queenie knew it too. She became a show jumper, won medals, turned heads every time she entered a ring and carried herself like she absolutely knew what she was put on this earth to do. Magnificent does not even cover it, she was gorgeous and so gentle.

Her rider was Natasha, Nat for short, the daughter of the family who owned the farm. Nat was there the day Queenie was born and the two of them grew up together, trained together and won together. You know that bond between a horse and their rider where they just move as one thing and you cannot tell where one ends and the other begins? That was them and it was extraordinary to watch. 

Nat was a healthy, thriving teenager with brilliant grades, a job she loved on the farm and a horse she would have walked through fire for. The kind of young person who makes you feel genuinely hopeful about the future. And then she collapsed during a training session and was diagnosed with stage four leukaemia and absolutely no one saw it coming.

It moved fast and within weeks this bright, beautiful girl was gone, but in those weeks no matter how sick she got or how hard it became to move, Nat visited Queenie every single day without fail. She was carried when she couldn't walk anymore, she was brought in a wheelchair when that was all she had left and she was not missing that time with her horse, not for anything in this world.

The morning of the funeral, the family brought Nat's open casket to visit Queenie one last time and I cannot tell you what passed between them in that stable but I know Queenie understood because animals always know. She had felt every change in Nat over those weeks and she knew when her person was not coming back.

After that, Queenie stopped eating, she stopped jumping, stopped running, stopped doing everything that had been her whole life. She lost weight and wanted to be left alone in her stable which she made very clear to anyone who came near her by biting them. The only person she would allow anywhere close at all was Nat's mum, who was completely heartbroken and doing her absolute best to hold the family together while falling apart inside.

I reached out to pay my respects and Nat's mum mentioned Queenie in passing and I could hear it in her voice straightaway, she had already lost her daughter and she was not going to lose Queenie too but she didn't know how to help her and neither did anyone else. I asked straight away if I could work with her.

When I connected with Queenie, what I found stopped me in my tracks, she was carrying grief so deep it had shut her whole body down. She had all the emotional blocks that a human would carry in a relationship. This was the first time I had encountered this in an animal.

She was lonely, she felt completely isolated, and she was missing Nat with every single part of herself and had absolutely no framework for understanding where her person had gone or why she was not coming back.

Queenie was not being difficult or misbehaving, she was heartbroken.

It took me a couple of days to work through every emotional energy block, layer after layer of grief and loss and confusion and the deep energetic weight of a bond that had been cut without any warning or preparation.

Then we waited and watched.

Slowly, very slowly, she started to turn around and honestly every small step felt like a miracle. Within a few days she was drinking water, then eating a little, then some more. The biting stopped and she started letting people come close again, then one day she took a sugar cube and then a carrot and everyone who witnessed that moment knew something had shifted.

It took about ten months before Queenie was fully herself again, ten months of slow steady healing, the grief processing and settling, the new reality becoming something she could live inside rather than something that had destroyed her, and then she started jumping again and if you had seen her in that ring you would have cried your eyes out in the best possible way.

Before she died, Nat had thought of Queenie and left behind the clothes she wore when mucking out the stalls, her show jumping gear, her pillows and the things she had trained in, and none of it was washed because Nat's smell stayed on everything. Queenie was often found rubbing her face against those things or sniffing them slowly, the way animals do when they are looking for someone they love and cannot find. Those things gave her comfort while she healed and honestly, I think that is exactly what Nat intended. She healed. Not quickly and not easily but completely and some bonds don’t end, they just change form.

I am sharing this because grief in animals is real and profound and most people have no idea how deeply an animal can be affected by losing someone they love. The bonds between Queenie and Nat were friendship, siblings and energetic bonds, not just a habit or a routine, and when that bond was broken Queenie carried the weight of it in her body in exactly the same way a person would.

Energy clearing works on grief, not by wiping it away or skipping past it but by clearing the stored weight of it so that whoever is carrying it, human or animal, can actually move through it rather than being locked inside it forever. And sometimes the most powerful thing you can do for an animal who is struggling is to do the work on the energy around them and give their body a chance to find its way back.

Queenie found her way back and I think about Nat sometimes, about the love she had for that horse and about the fact that even at the very end, being carried or wheeled in, she made sure Queenie knew she was there. That is a love worth remembering.

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